Happiness is...

Joe came to my home this weekend and brought Rocco. I was ecstatic. It was a little chaotic at first, but than Harley settled down, as did Rocco. (Joe calls him Stosh) This dog brings me joy like no other. He keeps Joe company during the week and I get to see him on the weekends. Rocco lives in a huge house with an equally huge yard. He gives Joe a reason to get out of bed. Dogs have an amazing healing effect on people. I see a difference in Joe when I call him. He is now responsible for another living being. The dog sleeps in the bed with him and wakes him up in the am. Rocco has given a 75 year old man a reason to live. I smother the dog with hugs and kisses on the weekends. (And clean up any messes he has made) This is truly a win/win situation. So far moving back in the home I shared with Tina is working out. I think we needed a break from one another to appreciate the good we bring to the table. Her son is currently in a detox/rehab facility which I think is wonderful. She is going to have a harder time letting go than he is, I believe. I have warned her that recovery is selfish. They are trying to find him a sober living home. His drug of choice are his mom's prescriptions. The few months I was gone she said things had gotten so bad she was ready to put him out. This is a woman who has always had her son with her since day one. There comes a time to cut the umbilical cord and let them go off on their own, mistakes and all. I call it "manning up". When your son stops being a boy and becomes a man. He is in a wonderful facility and doing great. She is the one suffering from separation anxiety. I suggested counseling for her to help her deal with the empty nest problem. He is all she has. That is too much for one person, to be someone's be all and end all. I don't want to be "All someone has in this world"...Too much pressure..Time to clean the room and get my laundry together. Have a great day. Peace!!!

Feeling Better.

I am feeling better. Getting my sea legs back. J is bringing me up my new (used) Honda Civic tonight or tomorrow. I figure that car saved my life so I'll stick with a Honda. This one is white and 7 years newer than the previous one. These cars get excellent mileage. That's what's up for me. I see all these people with fancy SUV's and I'll I see are dollar signs regarding the gas. Call me cheap, cause I am. In this economy I have to be. I have learned a lot from being around Joe. When you are around someone who has grown up during the depression you learn a lot. Trust me. This post is going to be brief as I have some errands to take care of that I have put off. Yes, I procrastinate. No more. I have to get things in order. I'll be by all your blogs this afternoon. I hope everyone is well and happy. Don't survive, thrive my friends! Peace!

Humbled

I totaled my car last night. Woke up in the hospital. They had to cut me and my clothes off to get me out of my Honda Accord. Thankfully just very bruised and scraped up. Not sharing pictures, lol. Apparently everything happened to my left side as that is the most damaged. Figures I am left handed. Typing slowly. Tina ( sis-in-law) picked me up from hospital. I cried when I heard my Bella was totaled. I cried thanking God that I was alive and that Rocco wasn't in the car. Than I came home and Tina took care of me and we talked. I realized that I have been humbled. Sometimes in life when things are going smoothly and no major bumps in the road, we forget to give thanks. We all cry to God when things are going wrong. I'm out shopping, going to lunch etc. Settled in my new place. I realized that I haven't been thanking God or anyone for my good fortune of late. Now that I am banged and bruised up I can't stop thinking. How did my car flip over the metal barrier? I have come close to death many times, why am I still alive? I realized I am happy to be alive. That maybe I need to do as I used too. Say my prayers every night, giving thanks. I have been very blessed in my lifetime. I am still a little woozy when I sit up. Just wanted to check in and tell everyone to take 3 minutes from your day and give thanks for all your blessings, no matter how big or small. Don't wait for a life endangering car accident. Peace!

Alive And Well

Been spending a lot of my free time at Joe's home which is right outside of Lancaster, PA. Sadly my 75 year old friend has been refusing to get internet in his home. He goes to the library. I am happy to say I solved two problems, Joe's depression and the fact that I am not allowed to keep my dog here. Rocco is staying at Joe's where I will get to see him on the weekends. He has been sleeping in Joe's bed every night and they lay in bed and eat bagels together. Joe was tickled when I got Rocco. We call him our baby. I think it is a win/win situation. I get daily updates on my dog, Joe sounds much happier and the dog has a huge house and yard. Rocco is happy. Winter is def here. We are expecting a blizzard this week. Oh joy. The cable company came out the other day and got my tv and internet set up. I was miserable with-out it. Which got me thinking about The Amish. Have any of you caught the show The Amish Mafia? Anyhoooo...they live such simple lives without all of our social/electronic gadgets. Their craftsmanship is amazing. The farmland is beautiful. The Amish believe that all of our modern society distracts from the main focus, being close to God. I think there is some truth to that. Maybe some are waiting for God to start tweeting? I hope all are well. Oh yes, the couple I was renting from got their child back, with strict orders of aftercare and home visits etc. I hope all goes well. Their child is beautiful. Stay warm, enjoy your loved ones and take some time to be silent and bask in the presence of all the good things in your life... Peace!!!

I found a place to call home

Whew, what a load off my mind. In small towns like this one it's rather easy if people know you and you haven't sullied your name. I actually went to a friends house and we poured some drinks and made a toast to new beginnings and a fresh start. Life can be as sweet as it is sour at times. My current landlord just got out of detox and seems to have a good mindset. Now she has the big fight. Getting her child back. Seems when you have too many domestic calls to your home and there is a young child involved, Child Protective Services gets involved. They came one day and chatted. The next thing we know they came the next day and removed the child from the home and placed her with her maternal grandparents. Now she is in foster care. The court hearings start this week. The gloves are off. Father against daughter and son-in-law. The dirty laundry will be aired. I lived this in my twenties and to see it replayed again is horrific. The only problem I have with moving is that Rocco is going to have to stay with J. Every single place I looked at would ask the breed of my dog and once they saw Rottweiler they said no. Rocco has spent the weekend with J and is comfortable there and I can go see him whenever I want. Yes, I am weird. I have been talking sweet nothings to my dog and reassuring him that all is well. J is the one who brought him up here 5 months ago and he loves the dog too. So I have tried to make the best of the situation and think that I have done a good job. I am a fixer of problems but have grown weary. I am making plans to take some college courses and that is very exciting. This is the year that I am going to take life and expand every horizon. Why not? We only go round this globe once...so I don't want to waste the trip. Peace!

What parents do for their children

A parents love knows no bounds. I thought this was an amazing idea.

Woke up this morning....

2013. I am still dumbfounded another year has come and gone as quickly as it did. So many changes have taken place. Some people that I love have put forth an effort to make positive changes in their life, others are never going to change. Joe and I spent New Year's Eve together. I made a nice dinner/dessert/wine. I know he lives off McDoubles when he is not with me. We were asleep by 12:20am. My phone buzzing with the usual Happy N.Y texts. The house is currently empty except for my dog and I, and this weekend Joe. I have so much to be thankful for, even though I don't feel that way at times. Rocco is snoring at my feet. This early am. time is mine. No one can take this from me. Even when my kids were little I still had to have at least one hour of alone quiet time. Regroup, refresh etc. Get ready to face the day. These days I am happy just to make it through a day without any catastrophe's. In 46 years I have learned that slow and steady wins the race, at least in my world. I make a point of not operating on my emotions. Always gets me into some kind of trouble. I occasionally miss that feeling of invincibility that carried me in my youth. Now I take vitamins and supplements and actually pay my bills. Yes, I have to move soon. I am maintain a positive attitude, even though I despise moving. The main problem is that no one seems to want pets. Hopefully I will find a place in the next two weeks, while Rocco hasn't grown into his true adult horse size. May this year bring all of us joy and peace and uh, prosperity? The first two seem to be a sure thing. The prosperity part is more of wishful thinking on my part. Happy New Year....Peace