Got a blue moon in my eye.....

I hate to say this but why must I press 1 for English? It irritates the shit out of me. It is not a predjudiced issue. I feel you should press one for Spanish, that's all. Am I wrong?

Blessings abound

It's quite an amazing thing when you rid yourself of all the leeches in your life. Good things happen. Today is grocery shopping day. It's so much fun to shop when you are told to gain weight. I have to gain about 15 pounds. The sallow, sunk in look doesn't suit me. My breathing is back to normal finally. My mind is in a good place and I am feeling normal, well whatever normal is. I have a new secret addiction. The Housewives of New Jersey. Yeah, laugh. These woman tickle me. I know, I know it's trash tv. but it takes my mind of my own damn problems. It just goes to show that no matter how much money you have, you put a group of women together and they cannot get along. Peace.

Good morning world

Had a great morning. My friend Joe and I just came back from breakfast. I had a big fattening waffle with strawberries and whipped cream. Joe and I have been friends for a few months and he has treated me better than anyone in my insane family. I am trying to gain about 15 pounds, still recovering from the damn pneumonia. I have a new appreciation for life. I want to be alive. I did learn one thing. I am a mouth breather. According to the doctor, you are supposed to breathe in with your nose and exhale through your mouth. I have been doing it backwards my whole life. One of my breathing exercises consists of "Smell the roses through your nose and than exhale the scent through my mouth". I didn't know there were rules for breathing. Are you a mouth breather?

New Computer

Been going nuts when the "new" computer crashed, so finally got this one delivered last night. I think we are going to be great friends. The house is as quiet as a mouse. My brother, and others are out. Silence is beautiful. The bought with pneumonia really scared me. I am actually trying to gain about 15 pounds. Just got all the staples removed from my back. God, did they itch! I learned through all this that I can't save the world. I need to focus on me and my mental/physical health. Yes, I decided I need to take my anti-depressent medication. Too many grey days does no good for anyone. I now am back into my old habits of blogging in the am and drinking my coffee. Just missing the puppy. Hopefully next week. Than I can start walking again. Thank you everyone who has stayed and checked in here. I will be a much more dutiful blogger. I have kept a journal since I was 12 and this is basically my online journal.Hugs and kisses to everyone.....

Out of slumville!!!!

Good morning America! Back in my old house. Just got my internet up and running. Yee Haw....Feels so great to be back in the house and away from the projects. I got myself a laptop, getting used to it. I think I am going to like it. God is good. I get the staples out of my back friday. My health is slowly coming back. I think the stress played a huge part in me getting that sick among other things. It felt really strange to be back in this house. The last time I was here my husband was with me. I know I am where he would want me to be. I am going to the pound this week and getting myself a nice mutt that needs a home. It's been a long journey but I am learning I can make it on my own and I can survive. Thanks for everyone's support and love. Time to finish unpacking. God Bless.

Victory is mine..

Well, slumlord dude took me to rent court yesterday. He served me while I was in the hospital. So I got discharged Sunday, and went to rent court yesterday. Gary didn't show up. You all know what that means.. The judge threw the case out. He said the landlord failed to appear. I am so glad I went, feeling crappy and all. Tomorrow is moving day. I CAN'T WAIT TO GET THE F OUT OF HERE. The doctor said the main reason I got pneumonia is because el cheapo wouldn't run any air and it made it hard for my lungs to breathe. So now I have nebulizers, inhalers, the works. I was in surgery for 5 1/2 hours. I have 40 beautiful stables in my back. Looks like a damn set of train tracks. I have faith and I know that time shall heal all wounds. This last year and a half has been nothing but learning and growing. To the moon!!!!!

I'M FREE!

Just got discharged from the hospital. I have been in there for two weeks! Turns out I had severe pneumonia. They said I have had it for over a month now for my lungs to be in the condition they are. I have 40 staples in my back. If I would have waited 2 more days I would have died. The main cause of my sicknes???? The heat and no air-We are now moving on Wednesday morning when slum man is at work. I can't take a chance of a relapse I have always been a relatively healthy person and my days of worrying about others people who don't give a flying fig about are over. This is about me and mine. From now on that is all I care about. First and foremeost I tam taking care of my me because if can't take care of me nothing else will move forward. I love and missed you all.....xxxxoooooo