How do you know?

How do you know when you meet someone that they might be the next potential "One"? I have numerous trust issues, no great shock. I have a friend in my life who has been there through thick and thin and seen me at my worst. Trust me, my worst is pretty damn bad. He is still standing as my friend. He is the first thing I think of when I go to bed and the first thing on my mind when I wake up. Sick, I know. Have you ever had someone who touched you and knew your body like it was theirs? I have and it scared the shit out of me. I have done everything humanly possibly to make this man go away and he won't. He is there, constantly. Patiently. He never ceases to amaze. I am scared to death...

What does sunday mean to you?

To me it means going out for a phenomenal breakfast, LOTS of coffee, and thankfully not football. I will watch it to appease others who share our nations fascination with the damn game. I find out about my one job Monday, so please everyone, say a prayer, make a wish whatever works. Oh yeah, I learned one rewarding thing about parenting. When your kids get older they will def keep in touch. To ask us for money. Ah, the ties that bind. Happy Sunday!

Wish me luck

Time to get off my ass and get back to the work scene. I have an interiew with my old boss. Going to kiss major ass. I am going crazy not working. I have had enough pajama days to last a life time. Seriously. So my interview is at two. Keep your fingers crossed and say a prayer for me.

What to do?

Why do men think with their dicks? Will someone please give me a good answer? I live with a married couple and guess who is chasing me around the house every chance he gets? Yup, her husband. I go back to work Friday night and I can'T wait. I have just learned from past experience that you don't shit where you live, nor fuck where you live. I just think men and women are two seperate entities. We should live on different planets. Maybe just hook up once a week. Than we would all get along fine. Just my rant. I think women are just the stronger of the two sexes. Plain and simple. Anyone agree?

And so a new year is upon us...

What a year, huh people? I moved out of my house and I now rent a room from a couple and am finallhy at peace. So I finally got unpacked and settled in my new place and now can blog away. I just realized that I didn't need that big house. It attracted to many needy people who needed a place to stay and it just became too much of a headache. So now I have a nice room in a beautiful apartment. Noone can get in unless I buzz them in. I like that security feature. I am starting to find my happiness and peace. Now I am NOT moving anywhere for a long damn time. I still have things in my old house that I need to bring here, but I am almost done. It's always a long strange trip, but I am really enjoying the journey. Peace people's.

Being a parent

Just got off the phone with Baggy Pants. It's 9 degrees in Nashville. Hahahahahaha. He got snow first. Maybe I am pre-menepausal, but everytime we talk I cry. He hates it. I miss him. I miss his presence. Being the brutally honest human that I am, I know in my heart I failed him many times when he needed me. So I overcompensate as often as possible. Our family put the fun in dysfunction. You might catch us on Springer, NOT. Kids just want to feel safe. I miss the smell of his dirty socks and this is fucked up folks. They stink for real. I don't care. They are part of him. He invited me to Nashville for the holidays. Tears were just running down my eyes. They might cut the umbilical cord in the hospital but guess what? The cord is always there people.....

And so the holidays are upon us...

I am back. It feels good. I had to do alot of soul searching in the last few months. I literally could not write. My fingers would freeze everytime I would stare at this blog. Now they are nimble again. Go figure....Thanks to everyone who showed care and concern.

It is still very early and peaceful. One of the problems of me being in this house is that it is really too big for me. Baggy Pants moved to Tennesse to be with his true love and is doing well. i have two rooommates. I know I am helping in this economy. Plus to hear a human voice now and than is nice. We are a house of 3 women plus a couple kids trying to make it from one day to the next. I have met many new people on this journey of mine to find peace. I realized I am blessed. My life could be much worse. So I shall keep swimming in the muddy waters of life until I will hopefully attain the clarity I yearn for. Peace! Great to be back. Now let me read what everyone else has been up to....