Going shopping to fix up the new crib

Since Kenny's death I have moved way more than I would have liked. Met people that I wish I didn't. Met people that I'm glad I did. Now I am in a nice safe environment and starting over once again. This time feels right. A good friend told me recently that if I am seeking a companion get a dog. I have been saying that all along, I have been too transient in the past to conquer that goal. Now however it is def doable. Today's agenda is to get a few odds and ends to make this little place of mine feel cozy and homey. Shouldn't be that hard. It's been two years June 1 since the death of my husband. I think I am finally ready to face the world head on and begin my new chapter. I have found that shopping helps. New stuff for a new environment. Rick did bring me home a nice steaming hot dozen of crabs last night. That will cheer up any Baltimore girl. Peace!!!!!!!!!! m

Welcome to PA!!!!

Back and online and in a new state. Packed up all my crap and moved to York, Pa. The cost of living in Baltimore is just too rich for my thin blood. So I found I nice little basement apt. in a quaint little town. Lots of places to walk to, and if for some strange reason I get homesick I am only 45 minutes from Baltimore. I stopped blogging I guess 'cause I ran out of relevant shit to write about. The journey continues and I am seeing some great bright lights at the end of the tunnel finally. I am back...Peace!

Trust and some more good shit,...

Lately I have been trying to decide who I can trust in this world and who I can't. How do you really know when someone is trustworthy? I usually go with my intuition. I am pretty good at "feeling" people. When I talk to someone I can usually get a sense of who they are and if they have a good soul, so to speak. I have been wrong, but more often right. When I give someone my word, that is it. Good as gold. I must be a dying breed. Nowdays when someone gives you their word it means nothing. I guess I am part of a dying breed. Just remember the only thing you have in this world is your word and your balls. Keep them.. Peace...

I am alive....

Yes, it's been a long time since I have posted. The journey has gotten hectic and strange but I am still here and now have time to write. So far I have learned that in the end the only person I can count on is me, myself and I. That's it. People come into your life for a minute, a season..always there seems to be a reason. Right now the person in my life is decent and is turning out to be a good friend. Since Kenny has died, *June 1 will make it 2 years*, I have been used and screwed by numerous so called friends. I am very cautious with my new friend. We are roommates. I don't know how we wound up being together but it is what it is for the time being. I guard my heart with all my might. I can't take any more hurts. The one thing I have noticed is that greed and envy seems to be at the root of most ill will. The better you do for yourself, the people that should be happiest for you are the ones who show that envy. So now I am just going on down the road, trying to make the most out of each day. What else is there to do? Peace...

The early morning bliss

This is my time of day. Switching roommates today. This journey has been an interesting one. New roommates is my age and going to truck driving school. The best perk is she has a gorgeous dog that reminds me so much of Auggie. I think this is the best choice I have made so far. It's been a long strange trip with many interesting people since Kenny has died. This girl and I have alot in common plus no more married couple drama. I felt like Dr. Phil listening to them banter back and forth. I am a pretty isolated person, especially since Kenny died. I work and sleep and watch bad tv. That is my interesting life. I need a roommate who will let me be. If the cost of living wasn't so high in Baltimore I would get an efficiency an live on my own. The next best choice is to find a roommate and split expenses so you can have a few dollars in yor pocket. The saying you really don't know someone until you live with them is very true. People come and go in your life for a reason. Some you are just happier to see go..Peace...

A day off, wow!

This feels like heaven to me. An actual day off from work. I slept til almost 3:30pm. this afternoon, as I work the graveyard shift. I finally have felt like sitting down and writing for a bit. It's ironic, but the most dependable employees at the restaurant are over 40. If I here one more 20 something say how sore and tired they are I am going to scream. What do they know about achey bones? Wait til they are 44 waiting on tables. I am building up my regular clientle again. They are one of the main reasons I enjoy going in. They keep me sane. Evidence of how shitty the economy is these days is very obvious in my check averages. We have a 2,4,6,8 menu. Most people are now ordering off of that. I wait on people after they have worked an 18 hour shift and fall asleep in the booth while they are waiting for their food. I did do my good samaritan deed for the week. A young man who works for the railroad left his wallet. I turned it it, money and all. He was shocked and grateful. So there are some of us left who are honorable. Be kind to your waitress when you go out to eat. She might be as tired as you are. Peace...

been so long

I have never worked this much or this hard like I have been doing now. By the time I get home from work in the morning I am dead tired. I have had no energy to write, let alone accomplish anything. So I sat down this morning and told myself to use the damn keyboard and write no matter what. I do know that I miss writing here, it is simply a matter of stretching my brain and time. Not in that order, but you know what I mean. I hope everyone in blog land is doing well and keeping their heads above water. That seems to be how the general public is surving. Keep on plugging folks..that is what I do..Peace.