Coming Full Circle

Epiphanies come at the strangest times. I just finished watching Panic in Needle Park. That dope scene was a bit before my time, but the story is the same. The lifestyle, the sickness. There was a time in my twenties when that lifestyle was edgy, even glamorous, strange as that may sound. It is part of the disease, that underbelly way of living. The most wonderful thing I realized tonight was that I am so very thankful that the way of living I choose now is something I wouldn't trade for the best bag, hit, shot whatever. I try not to think about the past that much. To this day I still have the occasional nightmare that I am in the mix again. Than I wake up. Covered in sweat. It takes a few minutes of looking around at my surroundings to realize that it was indeed a dream and not my reality. I sometimes wish I could make people who are still caught up, that life can be so wonderful, astounding and beautiful. The circle of life maybe? I pray that anyone who is lost will one day swim upward, out of the muck and to the surface. Peace!

Sunday Morning

I woke up deluged with news about Casey Anthony' release. Quoting Dad, "It is what it is". I prefer to spend my Sunday not dwelling on America's hot topic of the moment. The ultimate trial will take place many years from now between her and her maker. I am going to spend my Sunday cooking a nice breakfast, a short dog walk and than off to work. Knock out my shift tomorrow and than woo hoo..off Tuesdays and Wednesdays. I for one am not getting myself caught up in this whole Casey Anthony drama. I remember when it first happened, I blogged about it. It's in my archives somewhere. I know how this is going to end. She is going to probably accept that million dollar interview offer and who knows..we might see a reality show with her as the star. Nothing is surprising in the good old USA. So I for one, am not going to feed the greed machine. Life can be wonderful and beautiful. It's all about the choices we make. I'm opting for wonder and beauty...Peace....

The Truth....Very Simple....

HogMaws and more...

Hog Maws was on the dinner special list last night, lol. I shit you not. Along with Mediterranean Haddock and other typical dinner specials. Those damn Hog maws sell like crazy. The manager explained to me that they try to keep alot of the Pa Dutch dishes on the menu...I never knew until now that was a dutch dish. I am from Baltimore and lived in GA, where Hog Maws have a totally different ethnic history. The customers kept teasing me asking me if I wanted a bite. That is like asking me to take a bite of liver and onions. It's on my list of don'ts regarding food. I am not by any standards a picky eater. I am amazed that people won't eat calamari. I used to work in a steamed crab house and was always tickled by the out of state guests who sat at the table and looked in horror when I would open the top of a crab and explain how to clean it, and than eat it. I guess everyone's palate is different. You say tomato I say tomatoe...that should be the biggest problem in our world these days...time to go punch the clock..Peace...

A day in the life

You hug and kiss her good-bye
every morning.

I watch her get up and open the bottles
quite a variety Mr. Hubby.

Within two hours the snoring starts
lights back out.

You arrive home
the sun has already set.

You hug and kiss her hello
You shake her until
she slurs hi honey back.

You eat your dinner in front of the tv.
Sleep already creeping in the corners
of your eyes from a long day.

The dog knows.
She roams from room to room to check.
Than she settles on the couch
with you.
Off to dreamland you both go.

I know the thoughts that go through my mind
daily.
I see this pattern.
I understand it.
Wanting to be sedated.
I just wonder what the fuck the dog thinks?

Love it

What Happens When You Get A New Job?

You get called in on your day off to work...which is totally cool as this is only a four hour shift. So now I am officially on the floor, making tips and kicking ass. Making money is a challenge. Tonight is a Tuesday which means I won't get slammed. The best part about being new and from a different state is that all the customers tip really well. Hopefully that new card works wonders tonight. I know I have gained 12lbs since hitting PA. Not too bad, but anymore and it will be. We do have a killer Taco Salad that comes served in that deep fried edible shell. Sooooo good! I love sampling the wares at a new restaurant. How can you make recomendations to the guests if you personally haven't tasted the goodies? So time to get the work game face on and make that paper...Peace!