The Sacred Day Off

Ah, I can exhale today. It was sunny all day this past week. Of course on my day off-RAIN. I don't care. I have a secret to share with you readers. I started a new med regimen. Paxil. Yup, and you know what? The stuff is working. I 'fessed up to my doctor that I have been incredibly depressed lately to the point where it is starting to interfere with my daily living. I had stopped taking all pysch meds about 3 years ago. Been through the gamut. Lithium, Depakote, Zoloft and Effexor. This is the first one that has actually made me feel "better". The problems are still the same, but I don't sit here and dwell on it anymore. I am always the first to make fun of all the new happy meds they have nowadays. Ironic huh? I just felt myself slipping into this dark hole and it was getting bad. I wouldn't say I was suicidal, but I was questioning what the purpose of life is. These feelings just wouldn't go away. I had a hard time getting ready for work. I didn't want to take phone calls. I simply didn't want to do anything. It's been one week now and I am starting to come around. The darkness is turning into light. I am starting to feel more at peace. So if taking this pink pill everday is going to help, I shall continue. I am going to cook a nice meal for dinner. I am going to try to make each day a better one. Here is to optimism and hope! Peace...