Apr 2, 2009
Well, I know have a new battle to deal with. A certain family member of mine has been sick with what they originally thought was a thought infection. This member has been to the er twice in the last two weeks. Well now the Xrays were faxed to this nameless family member's primary care doctor, who referred him to a throat specialist immediately. The special st called yesterday and said to bring this person in asap. (This member asked me not to post who they are on my blog so I am respecting their wishes). I mentioned that I would not be able to pay the copay until Friday. They said don't worry about money, just get "person" into office. They are willing to work out payment arrangements. According to the X-Rays there is some type of growth on his throat that is interfering with his/her ability to eat. I am going to wager a biopsy is the next step. Why did this befall my household? I am scared to death. That is why I haven't been commenting and writing as often as usual, between work and this new situation. Trying to be strong and get myself prepared for whatever news I might hear this afternoon. So please everyone, keep my family in your prayers. I will update tonight. Thanks for everyone who is supportive of my little rantings and online babbling.. It keeps me sane.
Mar 31, 2009
I wonder what today will bring? Joy, happiness and peace, or stress, angst and misery. The daily coin toss. I believe that my mindset has alot of control, but in the casino of life, you can be smokin' hot one day or crapped out the next. I really hope the next few weeks the dice are blazing and my roll is SWEET. Don't mean to compare my life to a Vegas casino, but that is how it feels. Just when I get on a damn roll, they switch dealers at the table and The Widow-Maker arrives. I shit you not. That is the roller coaster called my life. Lately I am learning to hedge my bets, and be thankful when I break even or remotely close. There is always the option of going postal when my mind fragments, but I am too much of a pacifist by nature. Plus, I don't think I really know how to shoot a gun, so that rules that bright idea out. When all else fails, I just drink an assload of coffee until my head rings crystal clear. Caffeine and I have quite a splendid relationship. Nothing happens in this house until I ingest my first cup of java. My family knows it and God Bless 'em, they have learned to deal with it. I can feel the black brew burning into the pit of my stomach and the clearing of my mind is starting now as I type. Maybe it is going to be a good day after all. Hail the aribica bean!!! That magic bean is the only reason I am going to be able to get into my magic bus and go to work. Have a great day. May the cards fall correctly today.