Am ramblings

I wonder what today will bring? Joy, happiness and peace, or stress, angst and misery. The daily coin toss. I believe that my mindset has alot of control, but in the casino of life, you can be smokin' hot one day or crapped out the next. I really hope the next few weeks the dice are blazing and my roll is SWEET. Don't mean to compare my life to a Vegas casino, but that is how it feels. Just when I get on a damn roll, they switch dealers at the table and The Widow-Maker arrives. I shit you not. That is the roller coaster called my life. Lately I am learning to hedge my bets, and be thankful when I break even or remotely close. There is always the option of going postal when my mind fragments, but I am too much of a pacifist by nature. Plus, I don't think I really know how to shoot a gun, so that rules that bright idea out. When all else fails, I just drink an assload of coffee until my head rings crystal clear. Caffeine and I have quite a splendid relationship. Nothing happens in this house until I ingest my first cup of java. My family knows it and God Bless 'em, they have learned to deal with it. I can feel the black brew burning into the pit of my stomach and the clearing of my mind is starting now as I type. Maybe it is going to be a good day after all. Hail the aribica bean!!! That magic bean is the only reason I am going to be able to get into my magic bus and go to work. Have a great day. May the cards fall correctly today.