Dec 25, 2009

Happy Holidays





It's Xmas, or whatever you choose to celebrate. May it be blessed and wonderful. If you have parents, kiss and hug them, they might not be here much longer. Love your children. Be a great friend. Be your best. Not for just the holidays. All day everyday. Aspire...To the moon...no limits. If the Mayan calendar is correct, we don't have much longer. The world will cease to exist as we know it. Make your amends. Be at peace in your own skin. Sleep easy. Try not to survive. Thrive. If the Mayans and other's are wrong, that is wonderful. Someone once said "live as if each day is your last".. That is how I am going to bring in the new year. Riding a new wave in my life. I've cleaned out my closets, fighting my demons daily. I shall overcome. For myself, my son, for humanity. It starts with one. Happy Holidays....

Dec 24, 2009

Every time I think of you......The Baby's...

Been listening to alot of late 70's music lately. This was my makeout song at that time...My boyfriend had an El Camino and we would get so hot and heavy in that beat up car. I would not trade my memories in life for anything in this world. Merry Christmas.....





Falling in love was the
last thing I had on my mind
Holding you is a warmth
that I thought I could never find
(Sitting here all alone)
Just trying to decide
(Whether to go all alone)
Or stay by your side
(Then I stop myself because)
I know I could cry
I just can't find the answers
To the questions that keep going through my mind
Hey babe
Isn't it time
(Isn't time it took time to wait)
(Falling in love could be your mistake)
Isn't it time
(Isn't time you took time to wait)
(Falling in love could be your mistake)
I've seen visions of someone like you in my life
A love that's strong reaching out
Holding me through the darkest night
(Sitting here all alone)
Just trying to decide
(Whether to go all alone)
Or stay by your side
(then I stop myself because)
I don't want to cry
I just can't find the answers
To the questions that keep going through my mind
Hey babe
Isn't it time
(Isn't it time it took time to wait)
(Falling in love could be your mistake)
(Isn't time you took time to wait)
(Falling in love could be your mistake)
(Isn't time you took time to wait)
(Falling in love could be your mistake)
I feel a warmth in my heart
And my soul that I never knew
This love affair gives me strength
That I need just to get me through
(Sitting here all alone)
Just wondering why
(Then I stop myself because)
I know I could cry
(Then I think of you)
And everything seems alright
I've finally found the answers
To the questions that keep going through my mind
Hey babe
Isn't it time
(Isn't time you don't have to wait)
(Don't have to wait)
I know it's time
Ooh yeah
I know it's time
It must be time
(Don't have to wait)
(Losing this love could be your mistake)
(Isn't time you don't have to wait)
(Don't have to wait)
It oughta be time
(Isn't time you don't have to wait)
(Isn't time you don't have to wait)
It must be time
(Don't have to wait)
(Losing this love could be your mistake)
(Isn't time you don't have to wait)
(Isn't time you don't have to wait)
(Losin' this love could be your mistake)
(Isn't time you don't have to wait)
It oughta be time

The Dawn Does Come

The nights are so damn bleak.
I dread them.
I squeeze my big dog for comfort.
I take a Xanax.
I sleep.
I wake up.
Something happens.
It's still early and dark.
In my heart though, I know I will see the cusp of sunlight arising.
The heaviness in my heart leaves.
Hope comes back.
I anticipate a new day,
full of promise.
I'll stay by your side
I will be your mother forever
I love you.

Dec 23, 2009

For today don't bring me down...

This is where my mind is this morning as I get ready for work....

Dec 22, 2009

Strange days..

I've seen visions of someone like you in my life.....I had quite an interesting day today. I looked and noticed a man today....all kinds of girly strange tingly feelings...I felt 14 again. It felt wonderful to feel like a woman for a few moments again today. It felt like...a gift...

Dec 21, 2009

I adore Post Secret

How you know you are old




I was watching you tube, and one of the videos had a phonograph in it. I turned around and asked Baggy Pants if he knew what a phonograph was. I assumed he did. My smart, chrome thumbed Ipod wearing son just looked at me and said, " A phono what?"...When the song American Pie by Don McClean came out that was the first 45 I ever owned. I had a Mickey Mouse stereo, yeah, laugh, but I played it constantly. Than came my first real stereo and "I Can't Get No Satistfaction" played constantly. My parents hated me during my Mick Jagger phase. So did the neighbors. I thought at 13 my destiny in life was to marry that man. Things didn't work out the way my teenage mind planned. I love music. I can't imagine life without music. My son loves his music too. Some we agree on. Not much, but I'll settle for some. How can that child not know what a phonograph is????? Am I that old at 43? Maybe, I don't care. The memories of the music that I grew up with and my stereo with the stack of 45's and albums I wouldn't trade for the world. BTW...he now knows what a phonograph is. He doesn't really care.