Jul 20, 2012

Rainy day woman!

That is me today. Me, Tina and my two bff sister's from Baltimore were going to do a cheap day trip to Ocean City, MD today, but thunderstorms and showers blew that right out of the water.  I am a person who can do a beach trip cheap.  I go for the ocean, not the t-shirts and trinkets that will wind up in the back of my closet.  When you stand in front of the ocean, you realize that you are just not that significant or powerful.  The oceans of our world are a testament to the fact that we are just little creatures that are here courtesy of nature.

The weather is supposed to continue on it's shitty path all thru the weekend.  I get the blues when it's continuous gray outside. I need some comfort food.  Tonight is going to be bacon, eggs and biscuits for dinner, oh yeah, and GRITS....Hot cereal makes me feel full and happy.  Wow, happiness is much easier and cheaper at 45 than at 25.  Who knew?

Take your tidbits of happiness when they arrive. Peace and Grits!


Jul 15, 2012

Weekend Wind Down

The highlight of my week I do believe was going to the movies with Jay, Reuben and myself.  Jay had been bugging me to go see this movie for two weeks.  We got to the movies on Friday at 9pm. and we got the last 3 tickets for the 9:45pm. showing.  It stars Mark Wahlberg and Mila Kunis and the bear named Ted.  Seth McFarlane I believed directed this.  The voice of Ted the bear sure sounded alot like Peter Griffin from Family Guy.  The last three movies I have been too have all been ones my son dragged me too.  This was ok and I didn't mind admiring Mark Wahlberg's sexiness throughout the movie.  People walked out and I got the general sense that it wasn't what they expected.  Oh well, I'll take any family time.

I love the feeling of driving again.  Especially with the dog.  I can't believe how I put that on the bottom of my list because I had fucked up priorities.  Every time you accomplish something that is tangible, that is how I know I have moved forward.  Someone asked me if I had a do-over button would I use it.  I really don't know.  What happened years ago has made me the person that I am today.  I wish I could erase the hurt that I inflicted on people.  Everyone feels that if they choose to self-destruct, that should be their own choice. I used to have that same philosophy.  However there are many people that you affect with that behavior. So as I matured I learned it went beyone self. 

Next goal is to get a decent, self-supporting job.  I don't like being financially dependent on a man.  My friend has been there for almost 2 years now.  Thru the good, bad and fugly.  How he had no clue when I would dip off that I wasn't right, I don't know.  I'm glad I didn't spread my pain to him.  No human being needs to experience that as we will suck the life right out of you. I am waiting for him to wake up so we can do our Sunday breakfast.  I genuinely enjoy that and so does he.

We are experiencing a brief respite from the horrid heat-wave.  I hope everyone else is as well.  Hug your loved ones and enjoy the day.  Most of all, don't worry about Monday!  Peace!