May 6, 2010


WE GOT OUR HOUSE BACK!!!!!! Living on faith. We just got approved for the make home affordable plan. When we moved to Georgia, we moved partly because my mom had an ARM loan. So we headed down to the lake and rented the house out. When Kenny died we came back and are renting from current slumlord. The mortgage was 1,091 a month. Well, drum roll, starting June 1, it will be $700 a month. I have been in tears, tears of joy. I have a wonderful tenant so we won't be moving in until July 1, but all the paperwork was worth it. My perverted landlord can kiss my sweet ass good-bye. My spirits lifted so much. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. The roller coaster of life continues. What a ride!

May 4, 2010


I am on my break. I am picking up some hostess shifts temporarily. It feels so good to be able to type again. I am starting to smile again, even chuckle. That is the best sign that I am getting better. Humor really does make someone feel good. So I shall continue onward and upward. No tears, I shall laugh dammit and enjoy the little things. Have to run, but will be posting on a regular basis starting tomorrow. Peace!!!

May 2, 2010

What goes up, must come down...

Well I am no longer a working girl. I am on medical leave with no pay. I just applied for SSD. My right arm is not healing, and i need surgery. I also have Hep C and it just became active again. Thankfully I have food stamps and got medical assistance. My problem now is my rent. I am going to social services bright and early in the morning to see if I can get cash assistance until my SSD kicks in. I am trying to take all this in with the best of spirits but is is hard. When your health starts to fail you, it is scary. Plus, I am a workaholic. I don't know what the hell to do except work. This is a very scary time. Baggy pants has twenty more days till he graduates. He has applied for his college loans for September. So at least he is on track. This time last year in Georgia I had three months worth of bill money in the bank. Not anymore. I am scared, but I will fight. Maybe now I can work on the novel I have been trying to get published. My main goal is to get my rent paid. Getting the health insurance was huge. I have no co-pays and my prescriptions are only $1. I can budget well with the food benefits. It is humbling, but I have worked since I was 14 so maybe it is my time to get myself healthy, and use some of the damn tax money I have paid all these years. It feels so good to start writing again. This is the one thing in my life that truly brings me joy. I guess this is just another twist in the journey of my life. That is the attitude I must keep. Thank all of you so much for caring and loving me through my journey. It makes a huge difference in my life. I love and care for each and everyone of you. Be blessed.