Feb 27, 2010
Well, once again, I am back to work, feeling a little better. Through lots of reading, I have discovered that stress is a huge factor in getting sick. So, I have decided to give my brother a time frame. 30 days I think is fair. We got denied for the apartment due to my mother's credit. Well at least we didn't pay for the credit check, and that gave us an example of where we stand credit wise. So my next bet is to find a private owner to rent from. There are many places to rent, with the economy being in such a mess. I moved from Georgia, with my main concern being finding employment. Did it. I found a place to live. Done. Now I would like to find more decent housing. I have found that making small goals, one at a time, that are attainable, work best, at least for me. When you make goals that are simply impossible it leads to depression and feeling hopeless like a failure. So now I make my goals realistic. It is almost spring time coming so I might try to find a job at a steamed crab house. The money selling steamed crabs is phenomenal in Baltimore. A dozen runs about $50. So your check averages are nice, especially with liquor thrown in. This is where I am at today. I feel good. Baby steps are the ones that I am taking. One foot in front of the other.. Peace....
Feb 24, 2010
Good morning world...got myself in a great mindset early on this am. and than the stomach and bowels went to war with each other. They won..I called out, this is a short day, but my favorite of all shifts, so I hate to miss it. Might be the mexican food I have eaten, I don't know, but I have to be near the toilet at all times. No one wants an unhappy, sniveling waitress..So today shall be spent in my bed with Eclipse, yes, I am reading the series. The books are always better than the movies. That is something I learned when I was 11. Still holds true.
I have spent the morning catching up on all my favorite blogs. There is something wonderful about the connection we have. I have never physically met any of you, but I read about your lives and wonder if you are well and ok. I learn that everyone has their own struggles and trials. I love it when great things happen in your world. Doesn't take much to bring me joy. Material things and such don't really get it these days. It is always the intangible, the untouchable, things I can't purchase, that makes me have my bright moments. So for all of you who blog, please keep writing. You might not think it matters to anyone, but you are very wrong..Your scribblings and musings do make a difference. Peace!
Feb 23, 2010
Well the end of my two days off has arrived. Tomorrow I will be starting a new work week. I am going to try to have a new attitude to go with the week. I have applied for a new apartment today. My fingers are crossed waiting to here. I will be hopefully getting a better place. Tired of the slumlord. I have my tax refund sitting in a bank account waiting to move. Now I am just waiting for the approval. I also learned how much my privacy does mean to me. I love my brother dearly, but him staying with me has eliminated all my private time as this current apartment is totally open. He has alot of emotional problems and my patience has worn thin. He now wants to "stick" with his family. Well where the hell was he when my husband died? When our mother didn't get her SSI check for almost 5 months, where was he? Now he says he realized that all he has in this world is his family. I guess so. His friends are long gone, having used him all up. I am now becoming such a bitch and don't want to be...that is all for now...feels good to post again...