Feb 23, 2010

Soul-Searching....

Well the end of my two days off has arrived. Tomorrow I will be starting a new work week. I am going to try to have a new attitude to go with the week. I have applied for a new apartment today. My fingers are crossed waiting to here. I will be hopefully getting a better place. Tired of the slumlord. I have my tax refund sitting in a bank account waiting to move. Now I am just waiting for the approval. I also learned how much my privacy does mean to me. I love my brother dearly, but him staying with me has eliminated all my private time as this current apartment is totally open. He has alot of emotional problems and my patience has worn thin. He now wants to "stick" with his family. Well where the hell was he when my husband died? When our mother didn't get her SSI check for almost 5 months, where was he? Now he says he realized that all he has in this world is his family. I guess so. His friends are long gone, having used him all up. I am now becoming such a bitch and don't want to be...that is all for now...feels good to post again...

3 comments:

Whitemist said...

Wish I could tell you to take a brake and get away from it all, but I know you can't.
Times are tough and you have some time still "in the pit" so it seems. So blessings to you in any way possible, Okay?

the walking man said...

Lori if yoou don't take care of yourself first tell me how much is left over for them who really need you?

Move on as you have to kiddo, there is no blame to go around this table.

Lori said...

Joey- Thank you. He spent the night at a girlfriends and I woke up feeling rested and ready to face the new week. I really can be bitchy at times and don't like myself for it. This has just been a hard year for me. My brother doesn't get it.

Mark- You are absolutely right. There is no blame. Only I can implement any changes needed. I need to take care of me first and foremost. So I shall.. Thanks for always being there with your ear and your words..