Mar 11, 2010

Change and other....

Change is scary. Many of us are terrified of going out of our comfort zone. Change usually happens when you are up against the wall and you realize that whatever you are doing simply isn't working anymore, or circumstances beyond your control happen and force the change. I did a personal inventory and decided things I want to change. I know it's going to be a slow process, but it is necessary for me to be happy. I want to wake up and embrace the day instead of dreading it. I am a happy creature by nature, but lately been overwhelmed. My boss reprimanded me about overtime yesterday, yet he gave me the hours. I make $3.13 an hour, how much overhead am I really consuming? I am getting ready to make some major changes in my life, one change at a time. Kenny used to tell me about the arcs of life. My arc is now changing. I feel it. I no longer have the time or patience for stupidity. I can fake it at work, as that is my job. However in my personal life, I made up my mind I will no longer do that. It is too draining. My pleasures in life are very simple, and I don't want anything to interrupt them. That includes family members. I have an uncle who is very sick right now in California. I have airfare tucked away in case I need to fly out and see him. He is my only relative that is super special to me. Thankfully he remarried and has a delightful wife. So he is in good, safe, loving hands. That makes me sleep easier. I don't have a "bucket list" per say, but I do have my change list ready to go. There is a whole big world out there. Baggy Pants graduates May 15th, thank God. Once he graduates I am going to start exploring this world and making my changes. I will fulfill my parental obilgations, which never end,lol, but than it shall be MY time. I have a story to tell. People I want to meet face to face. Places that I have never been to, that I shall finally go.. I simply am going to start doing "me"... Here is to a new Arc in life....

3 comments:

Sarcastic Bastard said...

Here is to your new Arc. Good for you, Lori. About time.

Love you.

Whitemist said...

All I can say is good for you! Change is not easy, but once it starts, watch out!

Lori said...

SB- It ain't easy, but I am willing....Love you back..

Whitemist- I am watching out, lol...