Jun 3, 2010

Ungodly heat...

I am sitting here sweating like bad lunch meat, ugh...no a/c sucks. It sounds like a windstorm with all these fans going. Plus i have switched alot of my medications, and I am doing extra sweating and mood adjusting. I can't believe how shitty I have felt. I am at a personal crossroads. Do I want to continue with the mood stabilizers or go the all natural route? Every once in awhile I like to cleanse my system of everything. It's uncomfortable and irritating but it is something that I must do. There has to be a better way than taking a pink pill everyday to "feel good". Crash and burn. Sometimes the early am peace and quiet is more therapeutic than any medication. A good cup of coffee to clear the head. Mostly silence. So I am trying to figure this out. Do I NEED to be medicated or is it just a habit of always taking something to feel better? Isn't that what most people do nowadays? That is what I am trying to figure out now...time to un-stick my self from this chair and take a nice long shower. Peace and cool breezes...

3 comments:

Sarcastic Bastard said...

I hope it cools down for you. I stopped takng my antidepressant for awhile and then went back on them. It has been a relief.

Love you!

Unknown said...

You never know what your past life might have done to your system and a pink pill might be the best current medicine can do (but maybe not in the future). Bless you even in this heat!

Lori said...

SB- I have one week before I go back to the doctor to make my decision. Glad to know I am not alone...and we had a little thunderstorm in the early evening so it was a cooler night than most..Love u too...

Whitemist- Why do they make the damn pills in so many rainbow colors? I am not three, I know they are not Flintstone vitamins, lol..still trying to gauge how I "really" feel...Bless you too my friend!