Apr 7, 2012

Insomnia Blues

That is where I am tonight.  Can't sleep and don't want to hit the Xanax bottle. I think it is the stress of getting this move done.  The rent check just cleared at the bank and I have the new house key on my ring. It's official.  I love the new place, but as usual change is scary to me, whether good or bad.  It's change.  I wonder why so many people are afraid of change?  I hear everyone mention that.  It's like being in a situation that you can take or leave, just being stagnant.  When an opportunity comes along to improve your quality of life you hem and haw.  Thankfully this change is being forced upon us, and I know it's for the best.  I am now officially broke, but my money all went for positive things.  There are so many things I want to get for the new place.  I can't wait for the yard sales to start.  One man's junk....

I just want to thank everyone who has been reading me for quite awhile and the newer folks who just started.  I value your comments and look forward to reading everyone's life journey's daily.  It makes me feel that I am not alone in my struggle to move forward in my life, no matter how many obstacles are thrown in the way.  So thank you everyone for all the support you have given me through the years.  It really does make a difference.  Be well and keep rowing that boat..You will reach your destiny soon enough.  Peace!

6 comments:

bugerlugs63 said...

You're definitely not alone in your struggle to move forward ;-). I'm a bit stagnant at the minute . . . I would love to move house, just so I would be forced to have a massive clear out.
I think I will pretend that I'm m oving house for a few days . . . then pretend that it fell through. Yes, that should do it. Now I've just gotta convince myself.
It's not so bad being broke when the money has gone on positive things is it? That's pretty much where I am too.
Hope you got some sleep as "rowing that boat" is not so tiring after a good sleep. Take care . . . I'm being dragged away (as usual)

the walking man said...

Lori I think you have reasons enough to have a SLIGHT fear of change. You have been through so many these past few years but the thing is you always came through the dark spots with your dignity and grace intact. That is to your credit, your strength that the appreciation goes.

You know how to settle into a house and make it a home. Be well yourself as you settle in. Have a peace filled Sunday.

Lou said...

I'm glad you didn't reach for the X-bottle. Life is good, all on its own. Even the bad times should be experienced with a clear head...

It's all good, Lori. Breathe deep, and enjoy.

We will meet someday, I KNOW it! When we do, we will grab Mark, the Walking Man, and make him buy us a coffee!

goatman said...

Change is inevitable, by definition.
Your new digs are welcome, I am sure, to you.
Some gardening and flowers are in order now . . .

Lori said...

bugerlugs63- Oh girl, I know the feeling of wanting to get out of where you are at. I also know the feeling of being broke when you have spent it on the right things. I think all the time of the money I have blown when I was using and didn't care. It's sickening. I swore when I got clean I would always wake up and have money for a pack of smokes and a hot coffee. Be well and be happy.

WM- Ah, you have been with me since the beginning. I thought Georgia was going to be my final home and than Kenny died. Since he died I have been through the whirlwind. I took Baggy Pants to the new house and he was impressed. I pray this is my last move Mark. Thank you for the complement about coming through with grace intact. Grace and free will. They are two blessings that I am thankful for. Hope you had a pleasant Easter. xoxoxo

Goatman- Have already planned where the garden is going. Tina, sis-in-law, has a very green thumb. We are going to save our pennies and make this house a home.

Lou- I have done very well at only taking my Xanax when needed for anxiety. My doctor said they are the most widely abused prescription drug. I don't want to be dependent on anything to go to sleep. I think the WM buying us a nice cup of coffee is a fabulous idea! I wonder if we could ever plan a blogger convention? I am quite serious about this. I am not quite sure how to go about setting something like this up, but I think it would be an amazing event. (So many great minds in one room) :) A girl can dream...I do hope we meet one day. If you come to PA we can do the historical tour and go visit the Amish. They are an amazing people. Love you Lou...

Syd said...

Glad that all is going well with the impending move. No need to reach for a bottle of pills. It is all good, no matter what.