Sep 26, 2011


That is what I have immersed myself in these last few days. One more shift tonight and than I have two whole days off. Tina is finally starting to grieve. When someone dies at first you are so overwhelmed with coroners and making arrangements and telling people. Than it settles down. That is when it truly hits you, at least based on my experience. Sadness and anger, all the emotions come. I am taking certain secrets to my grave regarding Rick. I will never tell his wife. She is very kind and extremely fragile. She is a rescuer. A nurturer. The 4 years they were married were the longest he stayed out of jail at one time. She welcomed me into their home after I went through a very bad period. I have not let her down.

On another note, one of the cool things about waitressing in this part of PA is that alot of my customers are seniors and there is alot of old coins being passed around in my tips. I got tipped a silver certificate so far, lots of $2 bills and many old, old pieces of change. You can almost visualize the soldiers walking down these streets. The houses on my street were built mostly in the late 1800's. There is just a certain quaint beauty here. I am thriving. I feel like a plant that was half dead and now is starting to get healthy leaves and I bloom everyday. Peace.

Sometimes the light don't shine, that's the time we've got to open our eyes....You and me baby, are gonna get rehabilitated.....


Lou said...

I used to visit my aunt in Philadelphia when I was a kid. She lived in a big two story brick house, the kind that had two families living side by side but it was one house. Great old German neighborhood.

Yes, Lori, some things don't need to be said.

Love, Lou

the walking man said...

Stay the course babe...there is rhyme and reason in everything.

goatman said...

I have four Eisenhower dollar coins (~1972) I got when my dad died last year. I will try to give them as special tips. There is supposed to be dollar-coins of Indian chiefs which the government cranked out in the past but I have never seen one. They keep trying with those dollars.
I will someday be inspired to add to my blog, stay posted.izat

John Doe said...

Hi Lori its Andrew glad things are looking up.I started a blog so come over and see the trainwreck I call life.Have a great rest of the week.

Lori said...

Lou- I agree with you that you that some things are better left unspoken. Tina is VERY fragile right now. She needs no more bombs dropped on her.

I love this town because it is almost frozen in time. A handshake still means something here.

WM- Don't worry, I am staying the course and don't plan on veering.

Goatman- I have a special box where I keep my little mementos, old coins and bills, odds and ends that I find unusual. I hope you find some inspiration. I love reading what you write.

John Doe- Love the name, giggle. I hear you about the trainwreck. The best feeling in the world is when you make your final visit to parole/probation. I have my green card in my scrapbook. That was my last time in the system, and the only time I didn't violate. I will def stop by.