Sorry I haven't written, life has been interfering alot lately. First things first. I went to take my test and in PA you have to have a physical form filled out by your doctor. I did have that, but my doctor forgot to sign it and put his DEA number on the form. So I see the doc on Monday and Tuesday is when I rescheduled my test. It's pure torture to have the car sitting out front and not being able to drive it, but I will not drive without a license. Too close. I waited all this time, so Tuesday is not that far away.
This is the big bump. Jay called me two nights ago with the news that the man who rents him and two other men a room said they all had one week to get out. He no longer is going to rent the property. So I had to sit Tina down over lunch and explain the situation. She is trying to get her son out of the house. He is 21 and works at a convience store and brings home about $100 a week. She charges him $20 a week in rent and the rest of his money goes to pot. He has stolen both of our medications and I have let it slide. Jay works 6 days a week from 7-7. Plus because he works in Bmore he is going to have leave extra early as we are about 35 min from there. I can't lie. I know this might not be a healthy feeling but I am tickled with the thought of having him here with me again. This will be the first time that we have lived together with me being sober. I feel like he and I can really have a good relationship together. The problem is Tina. She said she will agree to two months. When we moved in here her goal was to get her son Travis out of the house. I told her my only condition was that if Jay were ever to be homeless that he would have a place to stay. She said yes, but I can tell she isn't thrilled. I don't want to be a bitch because I finally feel like we are on equal terms. Her car went up and so the only vehicle we have to drive is mine. She can't afford to put hers in the shop right now. So I am no longer dependent on anyone right now. I don't want this to get nasty as I love my son and I do love Tina. But if her son can sit home and smoke pot all day why can't my son live upstairs in the loft and just work and sleep? Plus he is willing to pay $400 a month. Jay doesn't do drugs or like chaos. He grew up with it and worked damn hard to get away from it. I trust him with everything. Do you think I am being unreasonable? Sigh, another bump in the road. Deep down Tina likes having Travis here because once he is out of this house she will be alone accept for me and her sisters and I do much more for her than any sisters she has. So we shall see. My son is showing up here tonight and hopefully everything will work out for the best. Say a prayer for me. Much love to all,....Peace!
4 comments:
I will say a prayer for you Lori . . . I don't think you're being unreasonable at all. As you said , you're on equal terms.
One day at a time, it could all turn out well . . . Or even better.
Lori, I always appreciated you never felt the need to "give advice" on my blog. You just gave encouragement and hope.
Now I will return the favor. No advice from me. You are all adults, and will work it out in a reasonable way. But I believe prayers never hurt, so I will definitely say one.
bugerlugs & luluberoo- Since you are both sending me prayers I am replying to you both at once. I agree. Things will turn out one way or another. I am hoping for the best. I always do. That is what has given me strength to keep going on when I want to sink in the abyss. I truly appreciate the prayers. LOL, I need them. Thank you and mucho love...xoxo
Prayers for you, Lori. You are focused and doing all of the right, responsible things. Stay strong.
June B
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