Sep 13, 2009

I walk the line

Yes, I do. I believe we all need a reason to walk the proverbial line. (Plus I love that Johnny Cash song). My reason is now myself. Two weeks and counting. Brand new place in an old familiar hometown. I shall stop my people pleasing ways and DO ME. That is my new motto. I have learned the hard way, that for the most part we are born alone and will die alone. Even though my husband died with his loved ones by his side, his death was ultimately his own. My life is going to be whatever I choose to make it. Nobody to use for a scapegoat for my mishaps etc. The choices are mine. There is a war going on everywhere daily. For many of us it is within. When I leave my home I am dressed in the full armor of God. I need it. I shall be resolute in my goals and let nothing impede my mission or my vision. I am blessed with a nice new place to live. This lake was a learning experience on the journey, but the time to move on passed June 1. Now my time is filled with rummaging through sentimental keepsakes, deciding what to take and what is junk. You'd be surprised what a hard decision that is to make. So I shall now spend this week getting in packing mode, which I loathe. Any offers to help pack??? LOL...

3 comments:

Rachel said...

This is a great post and something I needed today :) Thank you!!

the walking man said...

All of the choices have ever been yours Lori, same as with everyone. the difference is you have taken responsibility for them which is the way to make it through the muddy waters.

Everyone should be as bright as you in continuing to move forward.

Lori said...

Rachel- If I can brighten anyone's day, I am glad it was yours!

WM- Somedays I feel rather dim. I treasure your book. It's funny you called it STINK, I just packed it. Alot of people think Baltimore "Stink's", but you know what, the smells and sounds are what I know and they don't stink to me. It is what is is. Thank you so much for helping me move forward. You don't know how bleak the days have been lately. Your words do make a difference.