Sep 24, 2009

Sleep evades me...




Nerves are a jitter. Change is coming. My belongings and little treasures are in boxes. Try finding your favorite bra after you have already packed it. I have watched numerous bad movies on late night cable. I am too embarrassed to name them. Back to the land of the chilly and non-fake. I can't wait. There are no 7-11's here. That alone is upsetting to me. I am also nervous because men are starting to express interest in me, and I honestly don't know how I feel about that. Yes, it's flattering, but I really don't think I am ready yet for a companion. So far my dog's company seems to be keeping me rather happy. I know life can be whatever I choose. I am alone for the first time in many moons. It's scary and liberating at the same time. What to do? I am a firm believer in putting one foot in front of the other and seeing what happens. I want to thank everyone who reads my online journal and offers me advice, support and encouragement. I will be unplugged sometime Saturday and back online Tuesday, if all goes as planned. The night sky is beckoning me to get in bed, but I have read that when you can't sleep, to get up and move around for a bit. I try not to be dependent on sleep aids. If I see one more commercial for Extenze or other male enhancements I shall break my television. They now have a female version I have learned due to lack of sleep. Why are these infomercials invading my late night cable? I have found that when it gets really bad I resort to Animal Planet. Remember to kiss the ones you love today, and really mean it. Sometimes when the insomnia gets really bad I grab an old shirt of my late husband and wrap it around a pillow. That usually will do the trick. Comfort comes in many forms. Everyone have a blessed day. Again, love the ones your with. Life can change in the blink of an eye.