My Own Twilight

I try to imagine falling in love again, and if I ever will. I am a sucker for love stories and happy endings. I wonder, do they still exist? That unconditional forever love. Right now I must admit I am enjoying my solitude, but I do get lonely, but I am very wary of who I choose for close friends. For now I shall snuggle and get my comforot from my dog at night as he is my regular bedpartner. He is loyal. He switches back and forth between Jesse and I. I just wonder if I ever will fall in love again and what it will feel like. Or shall I be an old grumpy spinster? Ugh that sounds like a scary fairy tale. I just realize I am getting lonely, not all the time, but enough to make me wonder what is out there. Right now I am too scared to go "out there"....